GOODBYE

looks like blogging wont be possible for me for a long time so i have to leave and get a real diary:( it was nice while it lasted.. i was beginning to enjoy it!!!

WHEN YOU NEED IT THE MOST

   I am going through a tricky time in my life right now and circumstances around me are pretty volatile. One day they are good and the next they are not. But what has kept my head on my body in one mind has been God Almighty who has encouraged me with his word and whenever I pray I am at peace.

     Next is the gift of friendship, Which I should say am blessed to have. More than I thought I did. People who have come up and held my hand through this time. Giving me hope and a push to hold on and fight for what I stand for despite what the odds look like.


      I say in the darkest of times with your true friends by your side, anything is possible. Am grateful to God for such people.




     WIth the new technology era, its more tempting to sit back and keep in touch on facebook and whatsapp. But if you go out and interact face to face what you gain from that time no words on a text or wall can match.


   So today, go out and see a good friend you havent talked to physically for a while, if not for now, it will do you some good when you need them later and have no where to start.




Feeling loved. Happy Wednesdays

DRIVING TALES

   With the departure of Mr. came the little benefit of having a car. My first day was a Sunday so I took advantage of the light traffic and drove around getting a hang of the car and the driving feel. It was super exciting since I have not driven in like years (literally). 

   

    SO today I woke with something exciting to look forward to and I couldn't wait to drive myself to work. On turning the key, the car wouldn't start!!! The Mechanic tells me that the battery is old and is dead. Bummer!!! So that means that I have to buy a new battery. So on my way to the garage, I am dodging the potholes of our horrible road and I graze a parked car!!! and knock out my indicator lights in the process!!! What!!!

    Heck I had to pay for the scratches and also fix the car!! that has cost me and am thinking I might have to first park it and consider how much i am going to spend on using this car!!!

    It has really messed up my day for sure!! Have to re-think all of this through... Am still excited am driving though!!wohoo!! with a hole in my wallet!

     Not a good Monday for me...

WITHOUT LOVE

    This morning begun like no other. This morning I took my love to the airport and said a long goodbye. He is going to be away for 7weeks in another country doing the Lord's work. And as much as that is supposed to be my consolation, when it came to goodbye that was not consolation enough. I knew I would not cry coz am stronger than that but the emotions rose to reality in the last goodbye hug and kiss (cos they were many). I hate going to the airport to see people off. I keep telling myself the next time I come here, I should be the one leaving but then someone always leaves ahead of me! Drat!


      Case in point however, is that just these few hours without him in the country is loudly felt!! Thought I would bury myself at work but with little motivation to work I try to watch a movie (Hairspray). Big Mistake. Every romantic scene is so loud and I think of how I can take some of our moments for granted. Anyway now is the time to re-call them as that is all I will have till 7weeks elapse.


     At no point at all am I regretting any of this coz I rather this than living life without love. Love is the spice of life and I am bold enough to say you have not lived till you have fallen in love longer than a year. Coz before that its just infatuation.


    Happy Sundays. Find Love Find Life. God is Love.

PRIORITIES

   Lately I have been faced with too many tasks coming my way at once. Actually so much happening all at once! Choosing what to do first has been my trick of the day. Prioritizing what should be taken on and what should be left behind has had my brain in full drive.

    Its a constant tag of war.Should it be family, or fiance or friends or church or work?? What can wait and what can't? All these come at time when everything is time sensitive. Then also being at peace with the decision you have made has also been another mountain to climb. Just over this past week I have made it a point to decide on what is time sensitive over heart sensitive. That has been a tough cookie but looking back I realize that in a way I have created more memories that cannot be repeated (as that was the only time it happened) as opposed to missing out.

    I also get an adrenaline rush from making close calls wondering if I made the right decision. No matter what happens, I have chosen to make the most out of it. Before you know it you are enjoying yourself and somehow everything else falls into place or takes the back seat of 'worth missing'.

    At the end of the day I know what matters to me most and that will always take first place somehow. So here's to the continuous struggle to prioritize and prioritize right!

Happy Saturdays:)